Three Steps Forward, One Step Back

Soooo...today was my 7 week weigh-in at Weight Watchers, and sadly, I'm up 2.5 pounds. As much as I know I will obsess over how it happened, the reality is this is my first week with a gain since starting the program. All other weeks I've been averaging 2-2.5 pound losses. While I'm not surprised I gained this week, I'm surprised at how much I gained. The source of the damage, you may ask? One delicious deep fried meal at RC Fowlers (or is KC Fowlers? I can NEVER remember the name of that place!) consisting of chicken tenders with wing sauce, waffle fries, chips and queso. To my credit, however, I did count every last thing "on program", wrote it all down in my food journal, and used all of my extra "flex" points (plus maybe a few I didn't have). Not to my credit was the yucky tummy I had to deal with all night. Apparently, the body gets used to healthy food and rebels when something nasty accidentally finds its way there.

I find that I've also been relying heavily on Lean Cuisine meals, so maybe the sodium finally caught up with me. I've cut way back on Starbucks, so I can't blame that this time. Overall, however, I've lost a total of 15 pounds, 9 pounds with Weight Watchers, so I'd say I'm doing ok.

I'm also happy to report that instead of using it as an excuse to "throw caution to the wind" and "eat everything in sight since I gained anyway", I actually sat down and contemplated how I could do things differently to not have a gain next week. Strangely, I actually ate below my points today because I just wasn't all that hungry.

On another note, I've been watching the show Ruby on the Style Network, and I just can't say enough how much I love her and find her inspirational. She is beautiful inside and out and just exudes this amazing energy. While I don't have as much weight to lose as she does (I believe she started the show around 470 pounds), I can still relate to the struggle and desire to be "normal" and able to do the same things that "skinny" people do. And I appreciate the fact that she is losing her weight the old fashioned way - which I still believe is the best way there is.

This week's show focused on the return of her ex-boyfriend and her feelings over how things ended between them. He said if only she would have lost weight, he probably would have married her. Whatever. That's a LOT of pressure to put on someone. Chances are that even if she had lost the weight, he probably would have eventually found something else that wasn't good enough. I really question his return at this point in her life. My guess is that he caught wind of the fact that she was on TV and didn't want to be left out of the spotlight.

But Ruby didn't fall for it and said that she wants someone who loves her for all of her - weight and all. And I say Amen to that! Ruby closed by saying for the first time she is falling in love with herself. And what could be more beautiful than that?